It has been a long time since I've blogged either here or at my Inner Kingdom web site.  I have been struggling with trying to understand why God has given me this path.  On the one hand, I have a career that I have prepared for almost all of my life and am very talented at.  On the other hand, there is this channeling thing.  What is that?  How is that supposed to get food on the table?  So, I decided to just go about my job and put other things--not on hold--but just perhaps lower on the priority list.  My job can get kind of hairy no doubt and if I wanted to, I could indeed devote 24 hours a day to just doing that.  Today, I went to my website and saw two little postings in my guest book.  The truth is, I didn't even know I had a guest book.  These postings were so positive and inspiring that I had to ask myself:  Why wouldn't you be doing God's path?  You see, there's a slight different between what you do well and what you are meant to do.  I am very good at solving problems and leading groups to gain consensus.  I am meant to help guide people to their true path.  This has been scarry for me at times because I didn't want to be responsible for anyone else's stuff.  However, what I got from the brief postings to my guestbook was enough to help me see that who I am is a light of inspiration.  I think that's great.  I can do that.  I have been through enough in my life to know that there is always another side to get to.  I think I am getting to the other side of my doubt.  Thank you so much for helping me to see me nandakgb and dwl1128.  You have been my inspiration this day.

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