It has been a long time since I have blogged.  I have been doing a lot of introspection and thinking about my path and my role in the transformation of the earth.  I think I have been resisting my path for a long time.  I realize that I can't avoid what I am supposed to do.  I am supposed to be a teacher and contribute my understandings to those who could be helped by them.  As of today, I have begun the process of building another website for my organization called Human Light Center.  I will share more about that as the information becomes available.  For now, just know that it will be a place where those of us who are on the path can go to gain support and information from one another.  I am entirely committed to helping people to find their way.  I will also begin my seminar series called The Kingdom Workshop.  I have completed the first three chapters of my second book and will be looking for a publisher for that.  I am happy to move forward, but that doesn't mean I am not scared.  I don't know what the future holds.  I just move with faith and know that God has my back.  I will share with you as soon as I have information to share.  In the mean time, I hope you will continue to enjoy this website for as long as it is available.  I will probably incorporate the information from this website into the new one for the Center.  Please let me know what you think.

I've been having an almost sad feeling in my stomache for the past couple of days.  Whenever I get this feeling, it always is a precurser to something yucky going on in the world.  I felt this way just before 911.  I don't like this feeling.  I meditate and I can't focus.  All I can do is think about how sad I feel.  I wish I could pin-point what is going on so that I could at least know.  I probably can't do anything specifically about it.  I could send light out to the part of the world that needs it, if only I knew who needed it.  What I think I will do is send light out to everywhere.  I can also be kind to people on the street.  That's the only thing I can think of to do to be in action about how I feel.  I wonder what it going on in the world?  Perhpas it's not something going on in the world, but rather something going on within me.  I can't really pin-point anything that is particularly wrong in my life.  In fact, everything is good.  I have to go and meditate and take care of myself.  I guess we'll see what it is in a couple of days.

I am so excited!  I have finally gotten back on track with my book projects.  I am working on a book about children who are members of the Light Network.  It is tentatively called, "Raising the Light Network."  It is channeled by my guide Nadia who really loves working with children.  I sometimes get distracted with life and will not write for months at a time.  Then, when I finally get back to things, I think my guides get so intense that I won't stop writing for hours.  Sometimes I don't stop until 2 a.m.  I have added a sample of this latest work to the website under Future Books.  Please go and check it out.  I also have some articles on my Author's Den site.  By the way, if you have Your Inner Kingdom and like it, why don't you write a review?  You could put it on amazon.com.  Anyway, some of my students have started reading the book and I think they do more work with Your Inner Kingdom than they do with their own homework for class.  Well, perhaps I will stop teaching at the college and start teaching this stuff full-time.  Anyways, it's late and I think I'll head off to bed.  Or perhaps I'll head off to do more editing on my book.  Talk to you all later.  Sign off for now.

It has been a long time since I've blogged either here or at my Inner Kingdom web site.  I have been struggling with trying to understand why God has given me this path.  On the one hand, I have a career that I have prepared for almost all of my life and am very talented at.  On the other hand, there is this channeling thing.  What is that?  How is that supposed to get food on the table?  So, I decided to just go about my job and put other things--not on hold--but just perhaps lower on the priority list.  My job can get kind of hairy no doubt and if I wanted to, I could indeed devote 24 hours a day to just doing that.  Today, I went to my website and saw two little postings in my guest book.  The truth is, I didn't even know I had a guest book.  These postings were so positive and inspiring that I had to ask myself:  Why wouldn't you be doing God's path?  You see, there's a slight different between what you do well and what you are meant to do.  I am very good at solving problems and leading groups to gain consensus.  I am meant to help guide people to their true path.  This has been scarry for me at times because I didn't want to be responsible for anyone else's stuff.  However, what I got from the brief postings to my guestbook was enough to help me see that who I am is a light of inspiration.  I think that's great.  I can do that.  I have been through enough in my life to know that there is always another side to get to.  I think I am getting to the other side of my doubt.  Thank you so much for helping me to see me nandakgb and dwl1128.  You have been my inspiration this day.

What I have been facing is fear.  Really, what I have been not facing is fear.  I have been in fear of my life--literally.  I am tired of consulting my guides and getting the same message, over, and over, and over again, "You can be who you are, when you decide to be that..."  I have never understood what it meant.  I still am not convinced that I fully understand what it means.  Yet I know in my heart there is something within me that wants to come forward.  I can feel the push.  I feel anxious every time that yearning emerges.  It is there.  I thought for the longest time that the reason it would not come out was because I was not worthy.  I now know that I was put here to bring my unique brand of light to the world.  I understand that not from any one thing that happened.  I am beginning to emerge quite slowly and gradually because of my experience.  I realize that I have something to contribute and the only person who can contribute what I have to contribute is me.  If I do not put forward my light, it will not come forward.  What am I afraid of?  I fear myself.  No one is better at holding me back than me.  I am nasty when it comes to fighting and arguing with myself. I recall that sickening feeling that I would get when going into a review that I know is going to be bad.  "What is that bastard going to say about me."  You know how it feels, when you anticipate bad news or a bad conversation.  Now magnify that feeling by 1,000.  Now you know how it feels for me to anticipate having to face my biggest obstacle--myself!  This is what I must do.  I must go foward.  I must close my eyes, swallow hard, take a deep, long breath, and walk through that door.  No matter what I face, it cannot be worse than what I will face if I don't move forward.  I can actually think of something worse than facing my deepest fears--facing my own depression.

This short message was meant for me (I believe) but I think it has relevence for everyone on the path of light.  I have to process it a little.  Once I do, the next posting will be a response of my own to this message from Mark.

Saint Mark Chants:  Always remember that we are here.  I am existent because it is on one road for what we say will be.  I will know my place here.  I AM.

 

Saint Mark Channels: Go be. Your place is where you are needed.  This is your calling.  Be who you have be who you are.  There is one road.  We know.  I say, “Know who you are.”  Your business is to be.  Why are you here?  Stay true to yourself and make what you can from daily circumstance.  You are a bright child.  Go and feel the power God is.  Why would you ask what you want?  Do not think you have not been heard.  Ask for what you need and ye shall be given that which is purposeful.  There is one road to pay homage to.  False road would be devastating to your plan.  You have created your destiny and all things fall in place when you are going along your path.  Stay true to what is known to who you are.  I AM Mark.  Be what you have come to be.  Think only that which is true and when you decide to call yourself where you are will be great.  See that you know yourself always true to who you are.  Know that if you come forward you will be seen as that which is true.  Know only that God is good and that you have been put here to be.  There is only one path.  There is only one light.  Peace is the only mechanism to bring about true change.  There is no other way.  Be as peaceful.  This is why you have come.